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| 11:46pm 14/12/2003 |
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new lj name leftover_victim |
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| 04:46pm 11/12/2003 |
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I HAVE CANCER HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA |
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| 02:48pm 11/12/2003 |
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life
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| 10:16pm 01/12/2003 |
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music: the oi scouts! - war is sick
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well lately ive been chilling having some good old times and i have no stomach hair cuz i was hanging out witht the guitarist from the gutterpunx (who broke up) and he was gonna give me a free tattoo and so i drew out the loc and got it on the carbon paper shaved my stomach and shit and geuss what he didnt have the right shit to put the design on my skin so he said come back the next day so i call and it ended up that his mom called and bitched cuz she couldnt see her grand daughter (hugh'd daughter who lives in texas) so he had to take his daughter to see his mom and had to cancel giving me my tattoo so im going over there some time this week to finally get the bitch but i dont mind waiting cuz its free so i have no place to complain as far as i see it hes doing me a favor so i have to take what i can get and i thought something happened but it turned out to be just my head wandering nothing to do with the tattoo though just a general statement and yeah nothing else really going on except i have a ton of homewrok but i keep pushing it aside like always and will have to rush last minute to pull it off but o well yeah when the tattoo is done ill take a pic and post it up here |
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| 11:05pm 23/11/2003 |
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ok well since everyone else is updating bout the show i will too just to be trendy i like being a trendy fuck well the show as a whole sucked major ass but the part i went for was the fucking best no doubt it was damn good the pit shitty shitty all these teeny bopping assholes dont know how to mosh like they should but against me! fucking ruled detroit but ive been to better shows and unlike everyone else im not saying o this was soo fucking great it was damn good but the people sucked all the other bands sucked the venue sucked so was it worth it maybe if they played a better set list you fucking pigs saying it was the best show ever (im not saying who)need to lick my balls it was a decent show but not by far the best you assholes need to grow up some more and go to actual fucking shows instead of going to these lame ass huge shows support yer fucking scene and go see the fucking rat finks or pub life, malpractice, bump'n'uglies, and some dead heroes but i would say the best show ive ever been to was GBH cuz that is a once in a life time fucking thing or maybe oxymoron but ill see them again but that show rocked like whoa and on another note through much pondering and talking its time to close a certain chapter in my life and move on a little bit which i think i will do right about now well maybe later cuz its just killing me slowly and unessacary
one more thing i got myself a fucking band bout fucking time this fucking kicks ass playing some hxc crust punk o man you people dont even know we are gonna tear down this city were gonna go fucking boondock saints on yer ass better watch out motherfucker |
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| 02:38pm 20/11/2003 |
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i heard the funniest fucking thing today i fucking heard johnny cash's cover or hurt from NIN why johhny would do a NIN cover is beyond me but it was pretty cool |
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| 11:01pm 18/11/2003 |
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sorry to everyone who imed me i was hanging out with some friends and forgot to sign off its nothing personal towards you it was me |
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| 10:37pm 09/11/2003 |
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lazy fucking ted thats what i have fucking become just soo fucking confused right now what the fuck should i do i have no fucking clue and that rhymes crazy but seriously 2 options both equal benefits and equal nonbenefits (i forgot the word) well enough dwelling now time for the past this weekend went to ohio had a fairly decent time hung out with bunch of old friends good times good time bowled had a great time it was definitely fun talked to some german chick im german might i add that was awesome she said my german was pretty good so thats cool umm ate soo fucking much it was crazy now to finish off the weekend of food im gonna go have some german chocolate cake from kens b-day even though his b-day isnt for 4 days but still happy early birthday ken |
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| 07:09pm 05/11/2003 |
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i just got into a fight with my dad and he admitted that he lied to me about getting the car he bought so i said i hated him which is true and hes trying to control my life saying i cant go to shows and shit i really hate him and right before he left he asked if i wanted him in my life and i said no i hated him so hes like fine so i guess i dont have to put up with him anymore thats good all of this was brought on cuz i wanted to go see the casualties and dropkick murphys on sat he said no i cant go so i blew up cuz he has no right to tell me that since he gave me up when he moved put and has no right to tell me what i can and cant do well its not like any of you care im just trying to get things off my chest but since i dont talk to anyone i have really no one to talk toexcept this stupid thing o well im used to it |
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| 11:31pm 03/11/2003 |
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mood: does it matter music: anti-product: war is prostitution
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bored o so bored and my mailbox keeps getting fucked up so ive been woring on it all day and i cut my finger in like a circle with this peice of skin hanging inside of it it hurts like hell spray painted my arm cant get that off not feeling well dirty i can honestly say im looking pretty fucked up so i might just clean up for once tonight i doubt it though i always get too lazy to actually clean up i have no ambition for anything and the fucking daycare swindlers are hunting me to death i dont know why but their lyrics hit me a little bit too hard im a dirty bastard i wish i had my digital camera on me i would take a pic and post it to show you how dirty i actually am right now but i havent shaven in like a month my hair just fucked up cuz of sleeping and then my hoodie and the natural grease it creates i honestly forgot what i look like when im clean shaven and my hairs not fucked up i might just take care of myself tonight to see what i look like all cleaned up and shit and why am i talking bout my dirtyness and why cant i stop and why am i asking you questions theres no one there why does no one talk to me or more like why dont i talk to peoplewell its time for me to wah up later |
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| 12:03am 21/10/2003 |
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mood:  hopeful music: daycare swindlers- long hard road
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well as this week goes on more and more important decisions are yet to be made and the events that take place fri decide what happens utimately but im preparing for what might happen from those events part of me wants this job but part of me doesnt so i can do other things and im definitely leaning towards not wanting it but this is also the job that ive wanted for some time now only time will tell and i start preparing for the interview tomorrow i guess some lady at pankow is going to take me through an interview and i turn in my resume hopefully tomorrow but i have some feirce competition for this job but i know if i dont get it that its not meant to be and something else is meant to happen |
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| 11:50pm 18/10/2003 |
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mood:  crappy music: conflict- climbing the stairs
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ok i woke up today by my mom bitching that i had a late fee at blockbuster but i dont rent movies let alone watch them and then i decided to call my dad to tell him that i got a job interview at a body shop and he proceeded to make racial comments then my mom got home and bitched cuz i didnt pay the late fee yet and then bitched cuz i smoke too much but there she is with carol smoking over a fucking pack a day then i got a lovely email which i wont go into to detail about but it was not pleasant so then i headed off to work which was long and boring nothing to fucking do all day i got off and had to run 4 miles to blockbuster to pay that damn late fee and they gave me a hard time then had to drive home and fucking 10 miles behind this guy doing 35 in a 50 zone great fucking shit then i finally got home and its peaceful but i feel sick as hell for some reason and i get to work tomorrow and then monday then tuesday and next week i only get 3 days off one of which i have to spend the whole afternoon convincing of some guy why he should hire me |
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| 11:59pm 14/10/2003 |
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i love all of my friends and you should know who you are if you dont and to make you feel better here you are: EDith, Cera, erin, josh, mike (everyone i know), kevin, jason, don, sean, ashley, randy, matt, john, joe, nick. thank you all for everything youve gave me and everything youll ever give me it means alot to me youve all helped me through bad times and good times especially edith and cera i love you both the most you people give the true meaning to the word friend i hope the best for all of you cuz youve given me a damn good life and its much appreciated and to everyone that has hindered me along the way thanks cuz youve also taught me a ton bout life and taught me how to deal with shit most of you know the recent happenings in my life and this will be probably the biggest lesson ever learned by me i will not go into great detail but the decisions made in the next week or so can change my life completely and through much thought already im still not sure what to do but i will come up with a decisions and just remember whatever happens i am a part of you and you are a part of me no matter what thanks so much
o yeah the names above are in no particular order you all are as important to me as the other except edith and cera you are more important to me than you realize you have helped me the most out of everyone ive had tons of great times with cera and will definitely have tons of great times with edith |
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| 09:54pm 14/10/2003 |
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mood: determined music: Conflict- This is the ALF
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ok i was listening to conflict early today chilling actually taking in the words of "This is the ALF" an i realized that he has a fucking point about that shit for all you people who have no clue who conflict is or what this is the alf is saying the songs about standing up for what you believe in animal rights and people who try to put us down well thats my perspective so i have decided 2 things im going to start taking action instead of talking all this shit and that im going to become a vegetarian and not buy anything made from animals (but im not giving up my leather i bought it long time ago so its the grandfather law) |
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| 01:01am 11/10/2003 |
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mood:  drunk music: the casualties- 25 years too late
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ok recently i got paid so i spent it as fast as i could 73 dollars in 2 days i bought 2 cds conflict's the ungovernable force and the casualties early years good cds and then i bought a belt and food im liking the new belt so that brings my belt count to 5 and today i worked crazy busy day in te pizza industry and then i was invited to go out with some poeple i work with so i went out we went to some guys house at like 24 and north ave. his property is supposedly hunted so we headed out to the woods and chiled drank saw some crazy ass shit heard some crazy ass shit pretty fun now im home again and im a tiny bit intoxicated but no one is online and its taken me several minutes to type this cuz i cant see straight so im gonna probably head off to bed here soon i dont think i got my new dog like carol said i would but i dont know im still hoping its in her room but i doubt it i really hope i did but knowing how things have been going with me getting shit i really want i didnt get the dogwell ill find out for sure tomorrow |
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| 07:40pm 06/10/2003 |
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well yet again my family has manage to offend me and they dont give a fuck i should really stop coming down here everytime i do i get more and more upset so fucking noisy here too i hate it well im gonna head upstairs and write a paper for school now |
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| 10:04pm 04/10/2003 |
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mood: bored
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well im in fucking ohio o wonderful fucking ohio i hate this fucking state what a peice of shit but hey i gotta chill with some friends so hopefully it wont be half bad and im only down here till tues well no one is online and of course im bored as hell even though its the first 5 min of being here so im going to start digging through info on nietzsche for a report in german class |
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| 11:20pm 01/10/2003 |
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mood: cheerful music: Conflict - Climbing The Stairs (4:43)
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well i worked today that was ok it was work got free pizza and bread sticks and im going to ohio this weekend to chill with friends well im tired and have school tomorrow have a huge test on using oxyacetylene torches so i should sleep so i dont burn off my fucking arm that would suck i wish i could burn off some of the peoples heads in that class though especially one of the instructors hes a hardcore redneck and pisses me the fuck off "hey stop playing grab ass you want that join gym" fucking moron they dont even offer gym at that damn school its a fucking vocational tech school why would they have gym well im off |
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| 02:54pm 30/09/2003 |
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mood:  content music: Blatz - Lullabye (2:27)
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well im definitely satisfied now im happy too like truly fucking happy and i now know the cause of all my problems and anger and since the source is gone the problems are gone we all have problems but most are caused from an object or a person and once you get rid of that thing most of the problems go away almost immediately and almost all of my anger is gone today some kid called my a retart cuz of the way i speak normally i wouldve gotten all pissed off and probably went off on the fuck but i didnt and then later i was chilling on my bros car waiting for him and some kid pulled up and said dont steal anything from my car you fuck and again normally i wouldve keyed his fucking car or busted the window but i just sat there and smiled i am in an extremely weird mood today but its a good one for once in my life i do not feel like beating the shit out of anyone or fucking anything up im content and the weird thing is im almost running on no nicotine and completely drug free and today is gonna be cool my friend chuck is gonna come over or im gonna go there and were gonna chill drink and jam itll be funi feel like jamming that sounds fun |
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